I had just about the worst day of my career.
I wish that life will get better. I don't like being pessimistic about things, but things haven't been going well for a few years now.
My job's stagnant.
My boss is a cunt
Her boss supports her.
You know, at the end of the day, nothing is more important than support from your line manager. Someone whom you can look up to. Someone whom you feel you can bounce ideas off. And someone who believes in you.
I can't seem to get out of this situation. I feel so helpless. It's weird, but I've kinda gotten desensitised to the lousy life I've had. And yet, I am longing that things will turn better.
I don't know does it seem that hard? Find a new job, earn more money. Just a simple life. I don't crave to climb the corporate ladder.
You know I read somewhere that says -- you don't have to be jealous about others, cos sometimes you win, and sometimes others will win. So it all evens out.
Doesn't seem to have happened here.
It's times like these, you wonder, what is your purpose on earth? Nothing is fulfilling. I've a boyfriend who is miles and miles away. And it doesn't look like we're about to be together that soon. Job that sucks.
Mom and dad aren't feeling well. And I can't just leave them alone. It's unfair cos my married siblings are free to take off and start their families else where. I am expected to stay on and look after my parents. Thankfully my sister is not thinking of moving else where at the moment. I know we have to pay our dues when it comes to looking after our parents, I am grateful to have my sister around. But if some opportunity were to come up, who's to say she'll not move?
Why would anyone want to have children to put them through such torment that I'm going through?
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