well pissed off

I didn't get that project with Intel. And I should have known that I wouldn't because I wasn't that prepared for the interview.

Another friend, though wasn't given topic of her choice at Intel, was wanted very much by the team. She was very well prepared. She has slides, diagrams, statistics - you know, the kick ass stuff.

Now why wasn't I fucking prepared to do that kind of work if I wanted that job that much.

And to think some others got called back and I not, I feel like fucking kicking my ass.

This is a reality check, the final project is a foot back into the working world. Sure...fine and good that I am living in an unreal world, and DO NOT want to return to work yet, but it fucking pisses me right off that I have not been accepted by Intel.

Fucking pissed off that I am so laid back and not doing anything about it. This is what I wanted right?! An MBA and a better job, so fucking stop sitting on your fat ass and do something about it!